Mom started moving some today. I could've sworn when I walked in, held her hand, and told her "It's Amanda. I'm right here," that she mouthed my name. I know they told me this would happen, but it is still freaking me out...I mean she REALLY moves sometimes. It looks as if she can feel all the tubes running down her throat, which is really bothersome to me. They keep telling me I shouldn't stay the night here, but I worry that she will be able to tell I'm not here and I feel guilty because I know that if it were me in that bed, she wouldn't leave my side. She would be sitting in this hard upright chair, brushing my hair, holding my hand and probably attempting to put makeup on me lol. I'm crying just thinking about it.
I called Dad while I was sitting next to her. I was on the phone laughing and talking when her ventilator monitor started going nuts and she jolted in bed and moaned some. I told Sarah that I was worried that the stress of feeling as if my father was there made her freak out. Sarah laughed and told me I needed to write that down to tell her when she woke up...Sorry about that phone call Mom!
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